Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M Novel Chapter 92

Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M Novel Chapter 92

  1. She deserves better


My eyes snap open. Rays of light hitting me square in the face. I groan in pain. My head was 

pounding as if there was someone using it as a fucking drum

It takes a while to register that I am in my room, in Gabe’s house. It’s something we both did. He 

has a room at my house, and I have one in his

Groaning, I stand up and head to the bathroom. I turn on the shower and step under it. Using my 

hands for support, I lean against the wall and try to put my jumbled thoughts in order. I don’t 

remember much of last night except drinking

Fuck! How the hell did I get here? How is it possible that I fell in love with Ava and didn’t realize it 


The moment the realization hit me, I went straight to the club. I rarely get drunk. I promised 

myself not to ever get butt drunk after Noah was born. Normally, I just take a class or two, and 

that’s enough. Yesterday, though, I needed it. I needed it badly

There is no remedy for what I was feeling. No fucking cure. How do you even begin to deal with 

the realization that you love the woman that you hated? The same woman you spent nine fucking 

years hurting

I sigh and get out of the bathroom. Feeling like I have aged at least thirty years. I haven’t been this 

out of sorts in years

After getting dressed, I head downstairs. I find Gabe having breakfast

Where is June?I ask, referring to his housekeeper

She’s made us breakfast and left. She said that she wanted an early start to the market so she 

could get fresh veggies.” 

June had a thing against buying from grocery stores. For some reason, she believed that they 

weren’t as fresh or organic as they wanted us to believe. She buys all vegetables, fruits, meat

eggs, and milk from the local market, which is owned by a bunch of farmers

How are you feeling?Gabe asks as I pour myself some coffee

Like I’ve been hit by a truck.” 

+16 BONUS 

When I realized that I loved Ava, part of me wanted to rush back to her house and tell her immediately. I would have if my rational side hadn’t won. It was too soon to tell her. She wouldn’t 

have believed me at all

I’ve never been scared, but with this new awareness, I was fucking terrified. Is this how she used 

to feel? Loving me but also knowing that I hate her

About yesterday,Gabe begins, I thought you swore never to get drunk ever again.” 

I know, but I needed it. I needed to numb the pain. You can’t understand how difficult it was to realize that I love Ava. That all this time I’ve caused her nothing but pain. It was suffocating me to 

know that I may have lost my chance with her all because I couldn’t let go of my bitterness” 

I pretend I don’t notice it every time I show up to pick Noah up, and she frowns at me in disapproval. Or when, at times, she looks at me with nothing but hate and resentment

I ignore it, trying to let it not affect me because I crave her. I follow her around like a damn lost puppy, begging for any scraps of affection she’ll give me. Even if it’s bitterness, I take it because 

it’s the only way to be near her

I never thought of what she went through at my hands. What she is dishing out is nothing compared to what I did to her. Yet it still fucking hurts. How the hell did she survive me for those 

nine fucking years

She wants nothing to do with me. Wants me to be completely out of her life for good. I want to give 

her that because she deserves better, but I can’t let her go no matter how I fucking try

How did that happen? The last time I checked 

asks me, looking puzzled

were sure you were in love with Emma.Gabe 

Yes, but weren’t you the one that insisted that I had suppressed feelings for Ava?” 

I remember how adamant he was about that. He wouldn’t let it go, even after I told him countless 

times that I wasn’t in love with Ava. I guess he just knows me better than I know myself. He saw 

something I didn’t want to recognize

My gut was telling me you loved Ava, but your insistence at times made me doubt that maybe

was wrong.” 

I sigh. You were fucking right. My only wish is that I had relegalized this sooner. Maybe then it 

would have been easier to mend what I broke” 

+15 BONUS 

I stare off into space. Lost in the bitter memories. Memories where I had her, but instead of 

cherishing her I ruined her. I broke her. My actions and words chipped at her heart slowly by 

slowly until there was nothing left

I honestly don’t wish to be in your shoesGabe whistles and I glare at him. But you still haven’t 

answered me. I want to know when it happened. When did you fall for her?(

I don’t know. I can’t pinpoint the exact time. Maybe it happened when we were still married, or 

maybe it’s a recent thing. All I know is that I love her now.” 

I run my hand through my hair. I was frustrated and fucking scared. What a lousy time to realize 

you love someone

I think it was always there. Probably came after Noah was born. I also think you didn’t allow 

yourself to love her because you held on to the memory of Emma. She was your first love, so you 

assumed she was your true love. You can’t live with someone for nine years and not feel a thing 

for them. I know you, Ro. You wouldn’t even have touched her if you didn’t feel something for her.” 

Sex is a biological process. I just got what I needed from her while still hating her. I am ashamed 

to say there were times I imagined she was Emma.I tell him, feeling sick to the core at how

treated her.

Really? Did you imagine you were fucking Emma because you missed her or because you needed 

something to hold you back? Something that would guard you from enjoying the intimacy 

between you and Ava because you felt that enjoying sex with her would be a betrayal to the 

memories of Emma that you held on to for dear life?

I sit on the stool completely dumbfound 

thought about it like that. I admit I was 

attracted to her; otherwise, how would I explain how the hell I was able to get it up and going

Maybe Gabe was right, and I used Emma as an escape from what I truly felt for Ava

In my head, I had already betrayed the love of my life once; how then could I betray her over and 

over again by sleeping with and enjoying Ava’s body? It all made sense in my head then, but now 

I’m starting to realize that Emma was never the love of my fucking life

Fuck. I messed up big time,I holler, feeling like a crashing weight was on my shoulders

Do you love Emma?he asks and I shake my head in a no

Are you sure? Is all the love you had for her completely gone?” 

*15 BONUS 

i think about it for a minute before answering

Tes When she first came back, I thought that it would be our second chance at love. It took

while to realize that it felt all kinds of wrong. I didn’t even allow her to kiss me for fucks sake 

That should have been my first clue that I was done with her. That and the jealousy I felt towards 


I can’t begin to explain the rage I felt every time imagined Ava and Ethan together. It was all 

consuming and volatile

I guess it took losing her to make you realize what you felt for her. It took seeing her happy with 

another man to bring forth the love you suppressed. You held on to Emma because of the way 

things ended abruptly between the two of you. None of you got any closure. That’s why you held 

on to each other’s memories for so long” 

I get what he is saying, and fuck does it make sense, but it doesn’t help my case. So much damage 

has already been done. I said words I could never take back. Did things that will forever be 

imprinted on her mind. I destroyed her with my own two hands

What are you going to do?he asks me after a while

I don’t know. I was blinded by Emma before, but not anymore. Ava is fucking beautiful, and she 

can get any man she wants. There are already some who are sniffing around her, as Noah clearly 

likes informing me

I feel so dejected. What is to stop her from falling in love with someone else

She was not only beautiful but also intellige 

and she loves fiercely. Any man would be luck

aring, kind, and loving. She has a heart of gold

have her

I mean, fuck, she was able to change Ethan. I saw it in his eyes. He had fallen for her. Any woman 

who is capable of making a man change his ways is a fucking saint. I was a fucking idiot for not 

realizing the treasure I had

Gabe claps me on the shoulder. I’m sure you’ll figure it out. I’m positive of that” 

I wish I was as confident in myself as he was in me, because deep down I know I don’t deserve her

and my biggest fear is losing her to someone who does deserve her love

Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M Novel

Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M Novel

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Status: Ongoing Author: Artist: Released: 11/21/2023 Native Language: English
Ex-Husband’s Regret” by Evelyn M.M is a novel that explores the remorse and reflection of a former spouse, delving into the complexities of past relationships, their impact on one’s life, and the desire for reconciliation or closure.   Ex-Husband’s Regret” is a poignant novel by Evelyn M.M that delves into the emotional turmoil of a divorced man, grappling with the aftermath of a failed marriage. Through intricate storytelling, it explores his regrets, introspection, and longing for a chance to make amends. The narrative navigates the complexities of past relationships, the enduring impact on personal growth, and the profound desire for reconciliation or closure. This heartfelt tale offers readers a deep and relatable insight into the human experience of love, loss, and second chances.   Ex-Husband's Regret by Evelyn M.M Novel Synopsis Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?


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