’s been two days since Emma and I were kidnapped. The police have searched for Reaper, but he was in the wind again. They couldn’t find him and those of his men who were caught weren’t talking.
I’ve lived in constant fear since then, I don’t want something like that happening again. I especially didn’t want to be targeted for something that I wasn’t even involved with.
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“Mom can I play video games?” Noah ask bringing me back to the task at hand.
I’ve done all my chores in the hopes of keeping my mind from thinking too much. I was currently folding
our clothes. After this, I didn’t have anything else to do.
“Sure. What time did Gunner say he’s coming?”
Those two were now joined at the hips. They did everything together even when they were in school.
Their bond was so special and it reminded me of the one Rowan, Gabe and Travis have had since they were young boys.
“Around three”
“Okay. I’ll make sure to have some snacks for you two”
He kisses me on the cheek. “You’re the best”
After that, he leaves and I am once again left with my thoughts. It’s like for the past few days I’ve done nothing but think. It was driving me crazy. The thoughts just kept coming. Even when I was asleep.
Everything was confusing. Especially where Rowan was concerned. He has called a few times, but instead of talking to him, I just hand over the phone to Noah, I wasn’t in the right mental capacity to deal with him or the new character he has suddenly developed.
His actions these past few months are so contradictory. How can I all of a sudden mean something to him when I didn’t for the last nine years? What has changed?
Nothing different has happened. I am still the same Ava. The same woman who he kept rejecting her love.
If this change in him had happened a few years back, I would have jumped at the opportunity. Now though, I feel like too much has already been said and done. There are just things that I can’t erase from my mind or my heart. Words said that can never ever be taken back and actions that can never be undone.
But isn’t this what you’ve always wanted?’ a voice asks me. ‘To have him see you, pay attention to you, want you‘
I can’t deny that. I always dreamed of a day when Rowan wanted me, craved me. But it’s a little too late.
now. I let go of those fantasies a long time ago.
Those were the fantasies of a girl who was in love and craved love. The woman I am now understands
that some things were just never meant to be.
The woman I am now understands that hurt is more powerful than love. She understands that people you
love can break you to the point where you’re nothing but pieces on the floor.
She understand that love is never enough and that you can’t force someone else to love you. Finally, she understands that once something is broken things can never be the same again, that includes a broken
heart and trust.
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Falling for whatever game Rowan be foolish. He already destroyed me once and I can’t let that happen ever again. I don’t want to ever go back to a time where I would look at myself in the mirror and not recognize the woman staring back at her. I can’t risk that..
Protecting my heart and being there for children is my top priority now. That has to be enough. The love I have around me is enough, even if it isn’t romantic.
My silly dreams of finding my prince charming is long dead. Rowan and Ethan taught me that. They taught me that fairytales are exactly that, tales and we know that tales are fiction.
I’m shaken from my thoughts by the sound of knocking on the door. I look at the time and realize it’s almost three. I have been sitting here, drowning in my thoughts for almost an hour and a half. I needed to sort out the mess that was in my head. I can’t keep this up for long.
Sighing, I stand up. I knew it was probably Gunner because he was the only one we were expecting. I would make them the snacks I promised then take a much needed nap.
Opening the door, I am shocked to find Gunner standing outside with his dad.
“Hey” I greet him awkwardly after giving Gunner a hug.
He doesn’t need invitation so he rushes inside and up the stairs the moment we’re done greeting each other.
Calvin and I are left standing awkwardly, staring at each other.
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
