Chapter 0183
I smile. “I already fired her and hired a new secretary”
“When?”
“After the night of the dinner gala. I didn’t like how she talked about you”
She looks shocked. I mean Christine had been my secretary for years. I just didn’t know she was a
complete bitch. Scratch that, I didn’t care that she was a total bitch to Ava.
My smiles falls, when I realize how I let others and myself disrespect her. She’d been my wife. The mother
of my son. I should never have let that shit slide.
She doesn’t say anything after that. Just looks at me like she can’t figure me out.
“What did Doctor Raven mean when she talked about your first pregnancy?” I ask remembering what was
said in the clinic.
“Can’t you just let it go? It doesn’t matter. Noah is now healthy and everything went well. It’s all in the past” she averts her eyes, but I her voice catches and I know it’s painful for her to talk about it.
“Ava? Just tell me. I want to fucking know” I insist. I was desperate.
Going to all these appointments with her, I realize how much I missed when she was pregnant with Noah. I never even got to hear his heartbeat the for the first time,
Her eyes flash. Masking the glimpse of pain I saw in her eyes.
“Tell you what Rowan? That I was an eighteen year old pregnant girl who was scared and alone? That sometimes my blood pressure would spike up and I’d get admitted due to stress? That the constant hate from my family, my husband and in laws was too much that I fell into depression? How about the fact
that the Raven told me with how my health was deteriorating, there was a chance my baby wouldn’t
survive?”
She takes a deep breath before continuing. “I rarely saw you at home and when you did come all you did
was tell me was how you hated my guts. I gave you an escape that day, but you didn’t take it and
heaven’s do I wish I had fought harder to run away and get away from all of you. You told me you hated
me without realizing that even though I loved you, I also hated you right back. Coming to that bar was the
biggest mistake of my life. You, Rowan are the biggest mistake of my fucking life, but the thing is I can’t
take it back and I wouldn’t if given a chance because that means regretting Noah, and I can never regret
him.
“Now if you’re done rehashing the past and opening wounds that I’m trying to heal, I’m gonna leave. Have
With that she turns away and leaves.
I can’t believe that we almost lost Noah. That all the mistreatment from me and the other caused her health to deteriorate. We were busy hating her, while she was suffering all alone. It breaks me knowing! had a hand in destroying her heart.
I watch her as she gets into her car. My heart constricting at what an asshole I had been. I didn’t realize it then, but I wasn’t the only one who was suffering. I refused to see her side. Refused to see her pain. She was eighteen for fucks sake.
She leaves. I’m left staring at her car until it disappears.
Running my hands through my hair, the gravity of the pain and hurt I put her through hits me
like an of
bricks. There was so much pain in her voice. So much anger. How the hell was I going to make up for
years of mistreatment?
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
