Chapter 0195
“Fuck, you scared me” I put my hand on my chest as if that would slow down my beating hard.
“Sorry. I thought you saw me coming in” she says looking sheepish.
I was so lost in my thoughts that I hadn’t realized that they had entered the private booth.
“It’s okay…I just have a lot on mind”
“Care to share?” Letty asks, taking her seat.
I shake my head. “Not really”
It’s not that I didn’t want to share, it’s just that I didn’t know how to. How do I even begin telling them that the criminal everyone is tirelessly searching for is my baby’s uncle? Or that we have been in contact and
as if that wasn’t worse I permitted him to be in my baby’s life?
“Does this have to do with Rowan again?” Letty leans forward. Her eyes sparkling for some odd reason.”
Travis said that Rowan called him a few days ago and he was butt drunk”
I frown at that. I can’t remember the last time Rowan got drunk. He stopped drinking too much after Noah
was born. Plus he’s gone radio silent since that night he showed up unexpectedly at my house.
I still can’t believe that I punched him. It felt good because I’ve wanted to do that for a long time.
“Why was he drunk?” Corrine asks, seeming curious
Letty shrugs her shoulders as she answers. “Neither Travis or I know, but I bet Gabe knows and I double bet that Ava has an idea“.
They both turn to look at me expectantly. I shift uncomfortably on my chair.
“Spill it, Ava” Letty commands.
“Honestly, I don’t know anything. The last time I saw him, he turned up unexpectedly at my house at night. His behavior was odd so I asked him to leave”
“Describe odd?” Corrine pushes.
“He got jealous when Noah mentioned that Re-” I catch myself before I can say his name. “Noah. mentioned something about suitors and he went ballistic saying I belonged to him and he wasn’t going to allow me to whore myself to other men”
“Ooh, so possessive. I never thought I would see the day when Rowan becomes possessive towards you” Letty says all dreamy..
I just look at her like she was losing her grip on reality.
“You can’t be serious, Letty. This is Rowan we are talking about. The same man that told me over and over again that I meant nothing to him. That he would never love me because he hates my fucking guts”
The pain I used to feel was mainly replaced by anger. All the heartbreak I went through and all for what?
He is still a thorn on my side.
“I honestly t
think he has come to the realization that he wants you. Why do you think he wants to be
around you every time?” Corrine asks her eyes pinning mine. 1
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“Even if that’s true, which I highly doubt, it doesn’t matter. It’s a little too late. I gave him countless
opportunities during the nine years we were married and he wasted them all. He gave me nothing in
return except pain. I just don’t see things the way you guys do”
They’re quiet. Both staring at me like they want to say something, but don’t know how. For now, all I want.
is to let this Rowan issue go. I don’t want to think about him or his sudden change in behavior. I already
had too much on my plate without adding him to the mix. 1
“Look, I know you guys want to see me happy and for some reason you think I’ll find that happiness with Rowan, but you’re wrong. Our relationship was doomed from the moment we said ‘I do‘ years ago. We are toxic for each other. I loved him and hated him at the same time while he only hated me. I tried transforming myself into something I’m not just so he would love me and that didn’t work. Even if I were to try now, it wouldn’t work. The love I had for him is buried under tons of pain, heartbreak, resentment and bitterness. So please I beg you, let’s just let this issue go okay?”
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
