Chapter 0214
Rowan releases a groan uncomfortably. “Can we not talk about this? It was years ago.”
“To answer your question, yes. I was still a virgin… Anyway,” I paused. “I told Calvin about the baby. I didn’t want the child and I wanted to get rid of it, but he wouldn’t let me.”
“You wanted an abortion?” Mom asks, her voice ringing with horror and disappointment.
I couldn’t do anything, but nod my head. “Calvin threatened to tell you and dad if I went ahead with my plans. I didn’t want you to know about my mistake, so I agreed to carry the baby to term and he would keep his mouth shut. It was the worst period because I was forced to carry a baby I didn’t want but had
no other choice.”
“That was during the time you completely stayed away.” Travis whispers. “You wouldn’t even allow us to
come visit you.
I’d made excuses during that time.
When I got bigger, Calvin took me to a house his grandfather owned, which he left to him when he died. I didn’t want word to get back to Rowan. That’s where I stayed until I gave birth.
“I convinced the school to let me take online classes, and since I was actually doing well, there wasn’t a need to call you or anything. I stayed with Calvin off campus until I gave birth.”
I see Mom’s eyes fill. I know that it hurts her that she wasn’t there when her grandson was born, but it was
my decision and I had decided I didn’t want the baby.
“When I gave birth, I told the nurses to give the baby to Calvin. I didn’t want anything to do with him. To me, my job was done and now I could be free from the shackles Calvin tied around me when he forced
me to keep the baby”
“You didn’t even look at your own child?” Mom asks.
“No. I didn’t want to. To me he was the symbol of my worst mistake. I didn’t want to see him, hold him or
be in his life”
I know it makes me look like an absolute bitch, but I honestly don’t care. It was my decision, and it’s what
I wanted.
I left the hospital the morning after. Calvin worked two jobs just so he could afford the bill for the hospital. I didn’t care about how the baby was. How he was doing, what he was eating, and so on. All I wanted to do was forget that I’d had another man’s baby.
“And you continued living your life like he didn’t exist, right? Like he was nothing at all?” Mom asks,
standing up
“Mom…”
“Just shut up!” she yells before repeating softly. “Just shut up. Today, you’ve managed to destroy the remaining piece of my heart. As if losing your father and Ava wasn’t punishment enough, now I find out what a cruel daughter I really have…I can’t even look at you right now; I just can’t.”
With that, she walks away. Leaving me sobbing on the floor.
I look at the rest, and one by one, they walk away too. Travis is the last to leave.
He shakes his head in what I think is disgust.
“Of all the people, I never expected this from you, Emma. Not you,” he says, and then he too walks away.
I stay on the ground, crying. Everything had been perfect before she walked here and ruined everything. This was Ava’s fucking fault. Her and her big mouth. I will never forgive her for this. Never.
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
