Chapter 0255
Ava.
I didn’t sleep at all. My mind was all over the place. Everything still seems to be so unreal. I’ve heard about amnesia. I know about amnesia. I just never thought I would be one of the people suffering from it.
It feels so weird that there is this huge gap in my memory. I remember nothing after I woke up. Nothing of
the people who claim to be my parents. Nothing of the people who claim to be my friends. I remember
nothing of Iris or the man who got me pregnant.
Also, why would I sleep with another man? And why did it seem like Rowan had no problem with it? Scratch that; he isn’t mad because he doesn’t care. But why are we still married if I slept with someone. else and even got pregnant? And where the hell is my wedding ring?
I feel like I have missed out a lot. In my memory, Noah is five. Yet the reality is that he’s way past that. It feels like I’ve missed him growing up. He shared all these memories he has with me, but they don’t ring a bell to me at all.
Looking out the window, I continue to brush my hair mindlessly. It was now evening, and I was waiting for Rowan and Noah to come and pick me and Iris up.
That’s the other thing that concerns me. Rowan is so different from how I know him. He’s behaving so differently that I keep wondering if I woke up in a different universe, because damn it, it’s like an alien has taken over his body or something.
The hugs. The kisses. The holding my hand all the freaking time. It is just something that I’m not used to. The last we time we talked, he told me that he hated me and that he would never forgive me.
Could something have changed in the course of time?
I finish up, just as Mary walks into the door with Iris in her arms.
“Are you ready to try again with Iris?” Mary asks as she puts my daughter in my arms.
Yesterday, we tried getting Iris to latch on, but it was difficult. It’s like she was so used to the bottle that she found the idea of my breast foreign. To be honest, I am just glad that I had milk, I didn’t mind trying until she got used to me.
Yes, please
Releasing my boob, I try to get her to latch. I sigh in relief when she finally does and begins to suck.
kat her. She looks like look Week
It feels so nice to have her feed from me. I know that I’ve only known her for a day, but I already feel my bond with her. The same bond I have with Noah. My mind may not remember when I carried her in my womb, but my heart knows she’s mine.
“Are you excited about going home?” she asks as she packs Iris’s stuff.
Yesterday she filled me on everything concerning Iris. I am so grateful that she survived despite being a premature baby. So glad that they took good care of her.
“I am.” I chuckle a little. “Like I said, I’m dying to sleep on my bed. It’s way more comfortable”
She laughs, but otherwise remains quiet. When she finishes, she excuses herself. Iris had fallen asleep, but I continue holding her. It’s insane how much I don’t want to be separated from her or Noah.
I almost died according to everyone. Actually, I fucking died because my heart stopped twice for a few
seconds. It’s sad to know that I would have been separated from my kids.
I push those thoughts away just as Rowan and Noah walk into my room.
“Hi mom” Noah comes straight to me and gives me a hug.
“Hey, my love” I kiss his cheeks, feeling happy and joyous.
Rowan waits until we are done before he approaches me.
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
