Chapter 0129
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Just as that thoughts crosses my mind another one crashes inside my head painfully.
“You’re here to tell me you don’t want the baby and are getting an abortion, right?” I ask her stiffly, every
joint in my body locking.
She looks up sharply at me. Fire burning inside those brown orbs. For a moment I see the old Ava back.
The one she was becoming before I broke her.
“Why the hell would you think that?” she snaps. “I admit, when I found out I wasn’t in my right frame of
mind and I thought the baby would be better off not being born, but I quickly came back to my senses.
I heave a sigh of relief. I don’t know what I would have fucking done if she had told me she didn’t want to
have my baby.
“I came to tell you because I wanted to know what you want to do. I know that you don’t really care about
me so maybe you wouldn’t care about the baby too. Do you want to be in his or her life?”
I think about it before answering “No”
It pained me to say it, but the baby was better off without me I am a monster for what I did to Ava.
She’s silent for a while, before she stands up and picks up her bag My head falls forward. Hiding the pain
that I was feeling inside.
She goes to leave, but then she stops and sits back down
“Why?” she demands. Is it because you were just using me?”
“What can I offer him or her? I’m in prison, Ava By the time I get out, he or she will be an adult. I’ll miss all
the milestones, I’ll never get to be a real father to them, plus who wants a dad that would do such
despicable things to their mom?” I ask, desperate to have her understand
She doesn’t say anything for a while. I think I’ve made her see reason, but she surprises me.
“I know, but you’re their father. Whether you’re in prison or not, it won’t change that. You can be with us
through every milestone, Ethan. I can include you if you want. You never have to miss anything. This baby
derserves to know his or her father and your child will love you despite your sins, you just have to be there
for them”
“You’re willing to bring our baby here for visitations?” I ask in surprise
“Yes”
I stare at her in surprise. Ava was truly phenomenal. I don’t understand how the hell Rowan was able to
resist falling in love with her for the nine years they were together.
“Thank you” I tell her, my voice so full of emotion.
She nods her head and begins to stand. “I need to go, but I’ll be in touch. I’ll reach out again after my next
appointment. In the meantime you can have this”
She gives me a copy of a scan. It doesn’t take long to figure out what I’m looking at. I’m not an emotional
man, but tears fill my fucking eyes.
1 care about you” I tell her before she can leave.
At my words, she stops and turns to face me.
“W–what?”
“I’ll hate myself more if you leave without hearing me.” I breathe out. “I fucking love you, Ava. I don’t know
when it happened or how it happened, but it did. I love you with every beating of my heart”
Her breath hitches and mist fills her eyes. “You have to know that it’s too late now” she whispers.
“I know. I fucked up, but that still doesn’t change the fact that I fell fast and hard for you”
“I saw a future with you, you know that? It was so tangible and bright. My feelings for you were blooming. I
was on my way to giving you my whole heart. Broken pieces and all. Instead you destroyed everything”
I stand, unable to take the crashing pain. I knew she was fond of me and liked my company. I didn’t know
that she had developed feelings for me. That she was on her way to falling in love with me.
That knowledge was killing me. Destroying me from the inside out. I lost everything and because of my
foolishness, I couldn’t be an ever present father to my child. Because of my stupidity, I’m now missing out
on having a great woman by my side.
“Will you ever forgive me?” I ask brokenly.
“Maybe some time later in the future, but not right now”
I
Before I can think and back out, I pull her into my arms and kiss her with a passion that’s suffocating.
knowing very well that this is the last time I’ll ever kiss her. That this is the last time she’ll ever allow me
to kiss her.
This was our goodbye kiss. Deep down I know that I’ve lost my chance with her.
SANOU SI.
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
