Chapter 0199
I struggle, but finally kneel before him.
“Honey, what’s wrong?” I ask gently as I touch his arm softly.
The moment he hears my voice, he lunges at me. His arms circle my neck and he holds on for dear life. I fall on my butt on the soft carpet and end up sitting with him in my arms.
“Baby, talk to me…” I plead while rubbing his back.
1–I just don’t understand. You’re a great mother and you live with Noah. He told me that you and his dad
aren’t together, but you still love him so much. So why does my mother not love me?” he hiccups.
Struggling to get the words out.
My heart goes to him. I hold him close to me. Hoping that he can feel my love for him radiating from me.
“I’ve only met her once. She doesn’t want to see me or be near me. Am I a bad boy? Does she hate me so much? I just don’t understand why she doesn’t love me” he cries.
I can’t stop the tears that run down my face. I feel my heart squeeze. My throat bobbles as I try to contain my emotion. I pull him even closer. As if I could absorb his pain and take it into my own body.
“Dad say I am not a bad boy and I’ve tried my best to always be good, but she still doesn’t want me. It hurts, Ava. It hurts so much in here” he lets go of me for a while then pounds on his chest.
I grasp his hand in mine and stop his actions. I kiss his cheeks, then his forehead, before running my finger down his cheek.
“I don’t have all the answers to your questions, but I know you’re a great little boy. It may not mean much, but I love you, Gunner, just as much as I love Noah. If I were to have another son, then I would probably pray to the heavens that it would be you.” I take a breath before continuing.
“Don’t ever doubt yourself, honey. We may not know your mother, but it’s her loss because you’re awesome, and we’re so glad you came into our lives. Never put yourself down, Gunner. Ever. Because there are people who love you so much.”
I pour out my heart to him. Hoping it will be enough to pull him back to us. Everything I said is the truth. I Just hope he believes me.
He stops crying. His eyes focused on mine.
You mean that? You love me?” He asks timidly, making the need to find his mother and beat the crap out of her rise within me.
“Of course. You’re a part of Noah and me now, so how can we not love you?” I reply, wiping away the tear
stains
He calms down, then leans forward and kisses my cheek.
7 love you guys too. I’m so glad our dog sneaked into your yard that day, because then we met you and Noah, I’ve been a lot happier since I met you two.
His words brings tears to my eyes. Damn it. The kid was too sweet.
“I’m glad we met you too, Gunner.” Noah adds, and I nod in agreement.
A smile breaks from his lips and transforms his whole face. He was a carbon copy of his dad, but there
was just something about his smile.
Looking at him closely, something tags at my brain, but no matter what, I just couldn’t place why his smile.
seemed really familiar or why I feel like things are about to unravel.
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
