Chapter 0200
Calvin had called immediately he got the missed call notification. He’d explained that the reason he didn’t pick up is because he was in a meeting and his phone had been silent.
I He wanted to come home right away, but told him that everything was now fine. That I had taken care of the situation and that Gunner was fine. He wasn’t crying anymore. Neither was he sad. That was enough
for me.
He was reluctant, but he finally agreed given that his meeting would run late.
Now here I was cooking dinner for us. With thousands of thoughts running through my head. It’s like I
can’t get a break from my own thoughts. They’re constantly there and now there some that are added
concerning Gunner.
“What are we having for dinner mom?” Noah asks sitting down at the counter.
“Yes, what? I am starving” Gunner adds smiling at me.
There it was again. That damn smile. It’s not that I hated it. I could never hate any smile Gunner gives me. It’s just that it fucking bothers me so much. There was something about it that I just couldn’t place my finger on. 1
“I’m not sure” I tell them. “Why don’t we see what my craving will pick?”
Noah smiles wide and turns to Gunner. “Mom has insane cravings. Sometimes they’re really great and other times it’s totally disgusting”
Gunner nods his head. “Can I help?”
“Sure. Why don’t you flour the chicken?” I tell him.
Noah wasn’t really that helpful in the kitchen. In fact he was a complete disaster. That’s why he normally never helps unless it’s something he can actually do. Something he won’t mess up.
I got out the marinating sliced chicken breasts and the Ziploc bag of seasoned flour and handed them. over to Gunner.
He took them willingly with a smile on his face. One thing I learned about him was that he loved food and he also loved cooking. He was going to make a very lucky woman happy one day if he continued like this.
As for you, Noah, you can help with the dessert” I turn to him.
At least that’s easy and I won’t mess it up” he says grinning, making both me and Gunner laugh,
He was self–aware. I liked that about him.
“Now, if you get the buttermilk marinade on your fingers, don’t get it near your eyes. It’ll burn because of the Tabasco and salt that is in it” I warn Gunner.
“Okay”
We get to work. Chatting and simply having fun. I was so glad that I could give this to Gunner. So happy that I was able to give him happiness. I couldn’t take away all his pain and sadness, but this had to be
enough for now.
He was a lovely boy. Shy at first, but when you got to know him, you realize how amazing he is. I just
couldn’t understand why his mother would do this to him.
From what little I gathered. She doesn’t want to be in his life, I don’t know if it’s by choice or maybe forced circumstances, all I know is that it was hurting Gunner. The last thing I want is for him to grow up
I
with issues just like me.
“This is what I’ve always wished and prayed for his low voice pulls me back to the present.
“What?” Noah asks him.
Gunner takes deep breath before answering. “This. Having a mom by my side. Watching her cook and cooking alongside her. That kind of thing. Don’t get me wrong, dad is amazing but he is a dad. He can never be my mom”
Damn it. There goes my heart shattering into pieces for this little boy. If I could, I would give him the world, but that is not possible. Some things just aren’t possible. Like how Noah wants Rowan and I to get back together.
“You okay, honey?” I ask him.
He smiles up at me. “Yes. I have you, Noah and dad. That is enough. I know you’re not my real mom, but you’re like a mom to me already.”
I leave what I am doing and give him a hug before kissing his forehead.
“Damn!” Noah groans.
Language!” I chastise him and he goes quiet.
I’m sorry mom.” Noah says after a while. “I’ve been pushing and pushing for you and dad to get back together without realizing how lucky I am that you’re both in my life. Will you forgive me?“>
open my arms for him and he immediately steps into them. I close them around him before kission his
“You’re forgiven” I tell him while letting him go.
TII keep praying and hoping, but I’ll stop pushing so much.”
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
