Chapter 0201
“Thank you” I say
We get back to work and eventually finish cooking. They both help me set the table and we sit down to
eat..
With the three of us, or should I say four, we almost clean everything, but I put my foot down for some left overs. Calvin was probably going to come home tired and hungry. He won’t have time to cook something.
After dinner, I make them shower and then it is off to bed for them.
It was after they were asleep that the idea came to me. I had a five bedroom house. There was still an extra room even after turning one of them into a nursery. The last remaining bedroom could be Gunner’s
room.
He could sleep there anytime he was over and it could also be his safe space while he was here. I quickly
get excited about the idea. Immediately I take a note pad and started scribbling down what I would need.
I’ll have to ask Calvin for permission, but I was sure he’d agree. Well I hoped he would. Plus he’ll be helpful when it comes to the design of the room. He knows Gunner better than anyone. He’ll know what
he likes.
I was just finishing up the list of essentials when the doorbell rang. I wiggle up and go to open it, pretty sure that it will Calvin on the door. I wasn’t
wrong
“Hi” I tell him.
“Hi to you too” he says, giving me a tired smile.
I step aside and he comes in. We move to the living room.
“It’s quiet. Are they asleep?” he asks
“Yes”
I didn’t know what to say. I had so many question, but I was afraid of stepping out of boundary.
“About today? Gunner was crying because of his mother” I start slowly.
The moment I say those words, his face turns stone cold.
Don’t mention that bitch to me again! She has done nothing, but hurt me and my son over and over again. What kind of woman abandons her son? I get and understand that she doesn’t love me and she never will, it hurts, but I learned to accept that. Turning her back on Gunner is something else. I will never
Unrequited love. Wasn’t it just a bitch? I’ve suffered through it since I first fell for Rowan. I didn’t want my friend to go through it, but it looks like he has.
“Every time i call and she refuses to come see Gunner kills me. He is amazing, yet his mother wants nothing to do with him. I tried hiding it from him, but as he got older he started to understand things. He started to understand that his mother doesn’t want him and she wants nothing to do with him. Fuck I hate her so much, but I also can’t stop loving her” he says before continuing. Pain radiating from his eyes.
“I want to give Gunner the world, but the one thing he wants is totally out of my reach. I regret ever falling in love with her. Regret ever meeting her. But the thing is, regretting her means regretting Gunner and that
is one thing I can never do”
Where have I heard those words from? Yeah from my own lips. Didn’t I tell Rowan the same thing? That
as much as I want to regret him, I can’t because it means regretting Noah.
“I don’t have the right words for you. Hell. Our situations are the same, but different at the same time. All I can tell you is; be there for Gunner as best as you can. Love him so much that he doesn’t miss the love of his mother. Show him that he is enough and that it’s his mother’s loss not his”
Those are the only words I can offer. I wanted to say more, but I didn’t have the words to comfort him. He nods his head and we stay in silence.
“Thank you, Ava. For being there for me and my son” he says after a while.
“You’re welcome”
After, he leaves carring Gunner’s sleeping form and the food I saved for h
Hours after he leaves. Hours after I go to bed. Gunner’s smile still haunts my mind. His smile and his mysterious mother invade my every thought.
There was something I was missing. If only I could piece the pieces together then maybe I could figure
I out why this whole issue bothers me so fucking much. Maybe I can figure out why my mind won’t give me piece concerning the matter.
Evelyn M.M
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
