Chapter 0220
I always wondered what authors talked about when they said “earth shattering kiss‘. This was it.
My senses really have left the building because I grab the back of his head and deepen the kiss. It’s like I couldn’t get enough of him and I just wanted more. Even Ethan’s kisses didn’t feel this way.
I get lost in his kiss as he devours my mouth. This was exactly what I always dreamed of. I always wanted Rowan to kiss me like he wanted me. This what I’d wanted from him every time he came home from work or left in the morning. This was what I wanted every time we made love. We never got that though. Not
because I didn’t try, but because he never wanted me.
“You tried being a descent fuck but you weren’t even good at it. Every time I was inside you, it’s Emma | wanted, it’s Emma I imagined beneath me. Every time I cummed, it’s her face I saw. You were nothing
special, just easy and so I used you. I used you like the fucking slut you are
The words he flung at me a couple of months ago hit my head like a wrecking ball. I wrench myself from
his hands, as the words play over and over in my head. Tormenting me now, like they did when I first
heard them from his mouth.
I was breathing hard as I stared at him.
“Ava?” he calls in confusion
“Every time I was inside you, it’s Emma I wanted, it’s Emma I imagined beneath me” I quote his words. You were nothing special, just easy and so I used you like the fucking slut you are”
“Ava” he tries again, his voice barely above a whisper.
My tears start filling and obstructing my view of him.
That’s what you said to me. You said I was nothing but an easy fuck and a place holder for your precious Emma
Why the hell did it still hurt? Is it because he kissed me like he wanted me when in reality we know that he never cared for me?
“Listen to me, Ava. Please” he begs, but I don’t see him. The only thing I see is his face twisted into a mean glare as he shattered my heart with those words.
Please leave, Rowan
No he stands his ground. “Not until you listen to me”
I just wanted him to leave me alone. I just wanted to go to sleep and forget that we kissed.
“Fine then” I turn around and take my car keys.
“What are you doing?” he asks.
“If you won’t leave, then I will.”
I was just about to step into the hallway when his voice stops me.
“I’ll leave. It’s late and you shouldn’t be out by yourself”
I don’t say anything. Just wait for him to leave.
He starts to and I begin breathing relief. That stops when he steps next to me. Before I can do anything.
he tips my chin up and places a gently kiss on my lips then on my forehead.
I glare at him.
I
Instead, he gives me a small smile before he quietly leaves. The moment I hear his car leave, I lock my
door and rush upstairs to my room.
After changing I get into my bed and will my tired mind to sleep. I still couldn’t believe that I kissed
Rowan. It felt so damn good and that’s what scares me.
It’s easy to give in to this new version of him, but I can’t because no matter what I can’t risk getting hurt
by him again and we all know if there is something Rowan is good at, it’s hurting me.
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
