Chapter 0221
The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting up immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move inside me.
I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always make sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all babies get to be born.
After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always shower later, but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot to eat.
Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe that I let him kiss
me or that I actually enjoyed it.
It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the kiss. I wanted him to take it further. I
can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.
Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just a little bit. I
promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.
I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he has, don’t you
think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something out of the
mess he created.
Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t stop thinking about the damn kiss. For heaven’s sake, why the hell did this kiss affect me so much? I just don’t fucking get it, honestly.
I groan in frustration, wishing I could erase the feel of his lips on mine.
“What’s got you so frustrated?” Calvin’s voice startles me so much that I let go of the eggs I was holding.
*Jeez, Cal, you scared the living day lights out of me,” I say with my hand pressing hard on my beating heart.
“Sorry,” he grins. “I thought you heard us, given Gunner and Noah didn’t really get inside quietly.”
turn to said boys to find them munching on the cookies that I had baked yesterday.
It’s okay, I was just a little bit lost in thought.
The prin slips from his face. “Are you still thinking about what happened yesterday with Emma?
I just nod my head. It was a lie, but he didn’t need to know that I was thinking about a totally different
thing.
“What are you making for breakfast, mom?” Noah asks
“A fry up” I respond.
“Yes!” Gunner pumps his fist up in the air. “I love fry–ups; it’s like having all your favorite breakfast food at
once
I smile at him. So happy that he is happy. I’m hoping that one day Emma will see the error
mend her fences with Gunner before it’s too late.
“Are you
almost done?” Noah asks. I’m so hungry.”
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“Not yet. Just a few more minutes, and I’ll be done. Why don’t you go wait in the living room while I finish
up?”
“Okay,” they say at the same time, before rushing to the other room.
Cal takes the cleaning tools from me and proceeds to clean up the mess I’d made. “Sorry I brought them
here for breakfast when we should have given you more time to yourself. It’s just that they insisted that
they wanted your breakfast.”
I laugh at that. It’s not that Calvin was a bad cook. He just didn’t make it like I did. Their word, not mine.
“It’s okay. I would have finished cooking and brought some over anyway, so it’s not a big deal,” I tell him as I get back to frying the eggs.
“How are you holding up, all things considered?” I ask him
“Good.” He pauses. “I feel relieved that now everyone knows about Gunner. He’s an amazing kid, and he shouldn’t be hidden away like a dirty secret. After my grandfather died, I had no one until Gunner was bom. I didn’t mind it being just the two of us, but I knew it was unfair to him given that his mother had a family. Gunner deserves to know his uncle and grandmother.”
In my eyes, Travis and Kate weren’t people worth knowing, but they’d treated Noah well, so I guess it was safe for Gunner to be around them.
Shit. I should really let go of my resentment towards them. They were no longer part of my life, so it didn’t matter what they did to me before.
You’re right, Emma didn’t have any right to keep him from her side of the family
morning.
I excuse myself and leave the kitchen.
“Who is it?” I ask my son.
He shrugs his shoulders. “There was no one outside. Just this note.”
He hands me the note that had my name written on the front. I feel a chill run down my back when I look
at it
“Alright, you head inside. I’ll be there in a second,” I tell him.
He nods his head and gets back in the house. Still feeling out of sorts, like I was surrounded by an air
bubble of danger, I unfold the note.
YOU WILL PAY FOR EVERYTHING.
What the hell? My heart starts pounding as I grip the note tightly. I scan the street, but I don’t see anyone
or anything suspicious.
I
Folding the note, tuck it into my pajama pocket. I enter my house and close the door behind me before
heading to the kitchen.
“What is it?” Cal inquires while looking concerned. “You look spooked.”
“Nothing. There was just no one at the door.” I shrug and try to play it cool while my heart was beating
hard against my chest.
“Maybe it’s a kid playing a prank.”
“You’re probably right,” I mutter.
1 finish preparing breakfast, and we eat to our hearts desire. Gunner and Noah share funny stories from school, while Cal shares his from work. Even as I smile and laugh, I can’t help but think about the note.
Something tells me that there is something more to it. I trust my instincts, and it’s telling me that someone is after me.
My life once again seems to be in dange
Synopsis
Ava: Nine years ago I did something terrible. it wasn’t one of my best moments but I saw an opportunity to have the guy I’ve loved since I was a young girl and I took it. Fast forward to years later and I’m tired of living in a loveless marriage. I want to free both of us from a marriage that should never have taken place. They say if you love something…. It was time to let him go. I know he’ll never love me and that I’ll never be his choice. His heart will always belong to Her and despite my sins, I deserve to be loved. Rowan: Nine years ago, I was so in love I could barely see right. I ruined it when I made the worst mistake of my life and in the process I lost the love of my life. I knew I had to step up in my responsibility and so I did, with an unwanted wife. With the wrong woman. Now she has once again flipped my life by divorcing me. To make matters even more complicated, the love of my life is back in town. Now the only question is, who is the right woman? Is it the girl I fell head over heels in love with years ago? or is it my ex wife, the woman I never wanted but had to marry?
